I was sitting at my desk, typing away on my laptop when it happened. It hit me from out of left field. I wasn’t ready, I was far from prepared…I was distracted…I was researching for a meditation…I was completely blindsided.
In he peered, restless, twitching, upset, loud, and wanting to talk. I sighed as I closed the lid on my laptop, so I wouldn’t be tempted to glimpse at whether or not another e-mail came in, looked up and asked “What’s up?”
The invasion began as he glides into the room like a storm that blows in quickly. Pacing, stopping to emphasize his point, then walking around the table and back again to my desk; all the while spewing out frustration like so much vomit.
It is Maundy Thursday afternoon, I have a service to get ready for. I don’t have time for this ranting, I cannot fix his problem. I am tired. I want him to leave.
He stops, bends down to almost eye level and says “Let’s talk about spirituality, you know so much about spirituality.”
I know what he is inferring, I am shaking a bit…I look him back straight in the eye and say “Yes, I do, but all those spirits pale in comparison to the HOLY SPIRIT! Let me tell you about the Holy Spirit.”
At that, he blew out of my office taking a bit of the light with him, but leaving behind a darkness that seemed to swallow up what little was left.
Lord, Let your light shine. I need it.
Thanks so much for your transparency Darlene. I absolutely love that about you! If people only knew how very, very hard it is to be a pastor, especially a senior pastor. We are on the front lines and the enemy is totally relentless!
I had some pretty negative experience as well last week. Heard about some gossip focused at me that happened from a long time betrayer. I was surprised to find it still hurts. And then I thought, oh yeah, it is Holy week. And I remembered all that Jesus endured. And even though it still hurt, I thanked Him that He has invited me to share in His suffering.
Sometimes it seems like there are two kinds of people in the world….those who build up and those who tear down!
This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine!
Lin,
My experience was quite unnerving…this was a man totally in the grip of evil. It has caused me to realize how much I need the power of the Holy Spirit.
So sorry to hear about your tough week. Gossip is always, always destructive…and yes…Jesus understood betrayal.
Keep shining girl…the world needs it!
thanks for your commitment.