The tiniest spark….

This is an update on my post from last week.

We were almost 10 minutes into our Sunday Service yesterday and though I thought that darkness had invaded the light and I was almost swallowed up…instead the tiniest spark of truth/curiosity, desperation…maybe all of the above caused him to walk into our church service yesterday.  Glancing  back and forth from our screen into the bible that was in the chair next to him he listened and read along with the passage in Matthew 19, that I used in my sermon. The passage is about when a young man asked Jesus what good thing must he do to get eternal life. (v.16)

I have to admit that I was pretty deep in discouragement yesterday as my week sort of tanked with every passing day and I struggled with doubt, inadequacy, frustration and even anger.  To top it all off we had one of our lowest Sunday attendance in almost a year, half of our congregation was not in attendance yesterday….and as I sat near the back of the church sighing and praying that God would not let me look at who wasn’t there, but focus on who was there and to put His Words in my mouth; I felt him enter, before I saw him enter.  He walked in almost stooping low, so not to be noticed, his eyes darting all around like a trapped squirrel.  I jumped up and walked over to him and brought him in. I offered him a seat next to mine, but he chose to take a chair behind me. It was a perfect day for him to walk in…very few people….not overwhelming at all.  Who knew??? God knew.

Yesterday was also communion Sunday…we do communion usually before the sermon….he sat and listened respectfully to the liturgy and I relaxed a bit, realizing we would not have any outbursts.  He remained in his chair throughout the communion service and observed the church in action.

It was as I stood during the sermon inviting the congregation to open their bibles with me, that I looked up and as I saw his eyes this time…they were going back and forth from the screen to the bible and this time there was the smallest of smiles, the tiniest spark….

We are going to talk again on Tues.  I pray the spark becomes a consuming fire!

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